Never been this determined.
I wonder how can I be this patient.
Oh boy,lucky you.
I know I was blunt in the previous post.I take it all back.

Sister-in-law's comment on FB put a smile on my face.I was really pleased that she cared,even though how trivial it may be.

Left me high and dry.
Am I anticipating too much?I don't think so.
Thank you very much for claiming ignorance.
I know I shouldn't be saying this but seriously,depending on my mood now,it's more of fuck you very much.
I'm feeling the pain.Is this a true one?What,a torture?Now,I can assure you that I'm for real this time.Feelings and whatnots are genuine.And no,I'm not changing my mind just yet.To hell with reciprocating,I'm still in the game.


To add on,was pmsing last night - a sign that George will be coming.All I know was I felt utterly miserable,lousy and terrible just thinking about it.By late night,the pain was halved,credits to a friend.

On a happier note,hope you enjoyed your day Bestf.

School has been fair enough.Yes,I do look forward to Malay Intensive.Why?Because it's hell lot of fun even though I got teased by Cikgu Murad.It's the laughter that counts anyway.

Malay O's will be just next Monday and I'm getting the cold feet.No,I don't really look forward to June.

I'm longing for someone's text.Badly you may say.

Fever yesterday but still went out with family since we were eating out due to mother's belated birthday and 2nd eldest brother's girlfriend upcoming birthday which is tomorrow.Got food must have me.Seriously no mood last night but someone brightened me up.
2nd eldest brother asked me to tag along for the Liverpool's match but I'm seriously broke right now,less than $20 in my wallet.Saving money just isn't my thing.I told mother and she was kind of considering in giving me the money.

Me:Woah,you let me go?
Him:Why not?once in a lifetime what.
Okay,seriously his mood is superb nowadays.

Meeting Indra later for some chat.Cheer up okay Bestf?

It's going to happen.Maybe someday.
Progressing?Perhaps.
Good things come to those who waits.I've been patient enough,don't you think so?
*I told me countless times to give it up and go for better ones but my heart didn't want to.Is this for real?Or what I'm feeling now will just come and go like before?
I'm learning to look things at a brighter side unlike before.

I remembered someone asking me what is love.I've got my own definition and I bet I think differently than others.

I'm supposed to be sleeping in right now but situation does not let me to.Something/someone is on my mind.Maybe the whole time.

Very hilarious day thanks to Azid and the rest of the guys.
Really laughed our asses off during the last period,Humanities lesson.Miss Pham didn't really cared so why not use the chance right?
Examination seating plan is better than normal one because there's great company around me.

____ walked past.
Enoch:_____,ketiak busuk.
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHA wtf sia he know how to speak Malay.

Ben&Jerry's after school with BestF.Spent nearly $20 on food so was pretty satisfied.However,nothing caught our eyes.Wait,something did caught my eye.
Great,cold is back.This week passed so quickly and I don't like :(

Packed week ahead yet so little time.

During Chemistry:
*saw Miss Tan brought Chemistry Mock Papers*
Me:*Do happy dance in front of class* Yay yay got back paper.Yay yay no TYS.
Guo Zhong:Haha crazy girl.Get back paper then happy.You should be worried la.
Me:Because I never bring TYS HAHAHA.

Okay,I know I shouldn't be happy about it HAHA but I never bring TYS whaaat.
Oh oh Mama's birthday is tomorrow,although it does not feel like it.
Why also 20?

I'm supposed to look forward to school this week but there's no sight of . anywhere.
PE tomorrow okay best best best!

I love this.Sweet like sugar hahahahaha

WHISPERS "HELLO,I MISS YOU QUITE TERRIBLY."


Monday oh Monday,please come quickly.I want school.

Yay,everyone is talking big about ManU on MSN.Firstly,it was Kirisan.And now,Hafiz.I'm pretty sure that there's more to come.Thanks a lot.

Nice Saturday.
Somehow and somewhat ended up at Singapore Flyer watching the soccer match.Saw a few familiar faces such as Fatin,Danial,Illa,Yan and don't know who else.
I'm hell tired,shagged and totally zonked out.
Shall have an early night tonight,most probably before midnight.

SYAHIRAH says (10:45 PM):
* gosh please dont talk about manu
ReD dEvIl Manchester united fc cristiano ronaldo says (10:45 PM):
* lets talk about liverpool then
* the reasons i hate liverpool fc
* there are many


Like hello,that would be more hurting.Didn't catch BOF tonight ):

I can't sleep last night because I was too excited to go to school.Hah yes I love school okay.
Too excited till I think I blabbered too much today hahaha eh I miss my friends.
Recess today was super funny thanks to Anisa.Laughed with Fatin till our stomach were in pain.yes,that bad.Come to think of it,it was hilarious.

Impromptu lunch at PizzaHut.Kecoh like end of the world like that.Rushed to school for Math Paper 2.Took with the A Math people and yay I was seated so front -_-
Was do-able till I managed to have a shut eye about 15 minutes.No song came into my head because there was this cute Sec4 guy sitting 2 tables away from me hahahha okay what the hell.Just lost less than 20 marks I guess,mostly because I left one whole question blank which cost me 11 marks yeah whatever I don't like similarity and congruency.

I got no idea what I'm going to do tonight hahahaha okay watch the telly.

I'm drained out.
I'm drained of thinking what is happening.
I'm drained of making it perfect.
I know,giving up is never a choice.
Yeah,ups and downs of life,fuck it.
Life?Tsk.

So close,yet so far.

Monday was spent with Indra.His initial plan was to hit the books at library but we didn't even stepped into it.Hah instead caught up with each other's life with gossips and stuffs.So yeah,nicely spent.

Took a break from school today.Right eye is fu. swollen and red,needless to say extremely painful.Great,more pills for me to eat.Given 2 days of m.c and I'm missing school already and people and person ): I want to go school but I guess condition now didn't allow me to.

Caught A.I today and Kris Allen shone today,to me.I love his Heartless performance more than Apologise one.Danny was okay okay,that upsets me.And,I'm don't really fancy Adam,sorry even though he is the popular one between 3 of them.Kris is not bad but he's married haha.

Everyone is done with their Math paper 2 and I'm not.In fact,I don't think I'm scared of it since I don't really care about it.Math Paper 1 was alright.Planning to sleep but in the end didn't.I remembered I hummed Britney's If You Seek Amy hahahaha.

Yuhan. says (10:55 PM):
* i saw u today
* OMG
SYAHIRAH says (10:55 PM):
* hahhha fake sia
Yuhan. says (10:55 PM):
* dont scare me leh
* CB IM NOT JOKING
SYAHIRAH says (10:55 PM):
* u super fake like onch okay

It's never been me.It's always you.

I think I will be on a hiatus sooner or later.

Yes,I'm not asleep yet.feeling rather down that the tunic that I want was two size bigger.Although it will fit me but it will not fit me nicely.So yeah,giving it a miss and I hope really really really hope that the deal for the denim shorts does not pull through so that it can be mine muahhahahahha.Awwwwww the tunic was really pretttttty.

I shall go retail therapy tomorrow and endless gossiping.Wooooo,tempting.I'm craving for Pastamania and Swensen's right now.A cup of hot chocolate will be nice too.

Keds or Vans?I think a pair of Keds is nice.

I'm hungry hahahaha midnight snack,anyone?

Jaded?Maybe.

I did whatever mama told me to since today is her day.Bought breakfast with 3rd eldest brother with my very selekeh outfit ahhhh pasal la.It's been a long time since I stepped into West Coast.Padahal kat depan rumah je.

Sis and Irfan came by since they want to use the car and Irfan brought flowers for mama how sweet awww.Sis brought sushi for me and Indra who was starving at home,was extremely jealous HAHAHA.

Blogshopped the whole day and a denim shorts caught my eye but cb a lot of people were eyeing for it.Old Navy at that.Might as well I find it myself at shops.

A lot of food for today and I feel so fat right now as I've been stuffing myself non-stop.Aunt brought a cake and ya,obviously it was nice till I had a second helping HAHAHA i machiam babi.I'm lazy to upload the pictures as it's in my phone and it's very troublesome to upload it haissssh.

I dreamt of father last night and ya,it was very real.It was like we did things that we usually do like going for lunch together and watching the tv together that kind of thing.I told mama about it and she got back at me asking me to start praying as father have come to my dreams.Haha obviously after period,one will feel lazy to pray what.Okay,yes I miss baba.

Math paper on Tuesday and I guess I can't be bothered to hit the books.

___ has been texting nowadays and I've got no idea if it's a good thing or not.If this happens before,I think the outcome will be different.I was kind of lazy to entertain but ya,at least he did take the initiative unlike someone.Yes,whatever.I don't give a shit about it anymore.

I'm shagged.Shagged of sitting in front of the laptop and finding my denim shorts on the net.Shall get my ass out of the house and find it,most probably with Indra.

I wonder if Atiqqa is watching Chelsea and Arsenal match right now.HAHA I know very random but it was pretty distracting from the living room. Arsenal=Atiqqa so ya got link.waaaaah 3-0 now lehhh.Okay Reghu very happy he think I'm jealous tak tahu malu nye jantan.

Yay the blogowner replied my email wooooooo okay happy.I can't wait for Boys Over Flowers tomorrow night yay yay Gu Jun Pyo and Song Wubin woooooooo.

What a nice way to end the weekdays wooo.

I did nap during tpi.Yes,for the full 55 minutes.And half of English too.My eyelids were pretty heavy.I think today was quite slacky except for Poa which I was rather fresh from the nap earlier on.

Social Studies paper was average ; easy peasy lemon squeezy.My fingers are very numb now due to the excessive writing just now.Come on,imagine writing non-stop for one and a half hours.I still think that that we were not given enough time.I scribbled throughout.First page was nice and neat,turn to the next page,I wonder if it can be read HAHA.Standard uh,no time management.Spent too much time on SBQ till I've got only around 20 minutes for SEQ.Was pretty satisfied with the paper yay thumbs up! Was really in the mood to do the paper until I've got no time to hum any songs HAHAHA.I think Math paper can.

Mama is psycho-ing me to chop my hair HAHAHA dream on okay.
My right eye isn't getting any better.It's still red and I'm still stubborn to continue with contacts.Shall see how it goes.

It's getting stronger as days goes by.

Time check:5.44am

I can't believe I slept less than 6 hours last night.I will keep yawning for sure during lessons later or worse,doze off.I think there is no problem in dozing off as we are using the examinations seating plan and I'm seated in the middle of class.Well,I did tried before sleeping and wasn't caught so yeah,good thing.Dinesh's seat was the best since he loves to sleep and it was at a very good position which is at the back of the class.

Screwed Math test big time yesterday.Uhmm didn't do the first 2 questions of similarity and congruency but I did Vectors,some of it.Expecting a single digit for it and I won't be alone since there's Syakura and Fatin yay!

I'm worn out,mentally and physically.The weather is humid but I kept having flu.Just what is wrong with this world?

Social Studies Mock today after school and damn,it will be a very long day.I think I will catch some sleep during TPI so that I can focus more during the paper because confirm there will be no time spared for any naps unlike Biology HAHAHA.

I've always thought that it takes two hands to clap and two to tango?
I'm tired of running the show alone.It's not as if I am not thankful for the recent fortunate and happy happenings.I am,from the bottom of my heart.I've always been the impatient type - if I want something,I want it as quick as possible.Good things came out for those who waits.Somehow,it is true.I just wish that it will be reciprocated.Or was it just a wishful thinking on my part?

***
I'm not supposed to waste time like this but gosh,it really tempts me.My brain is tired now from all those Chemistry.I'm left with a topic which seriously needs memorising and I'm more than willing to burn the midnight oil tonight.Just hope that I won't be cranky tomorrow.

School has been kind to me lately except during English lesson which I dozed off for about 5-10 minutes.All I know that I will have a extremely packed week ahead with mock exams after school.Say,Chemistry tomorrow.And today was a very nice day with friends.Yeah,those laughter.

The flu bug came and I'm shivering like an eskimo HAHAHAHA no link.My right eye is bloody red since last night.I hope it's not sore eye please please please.It's torturing.Shall stay away from contacts for while.I hope it will prevent from deteriorating. I'm kind of scared of the swine flu.

Oh god,I'm starved.Sacrificed my dinner to watch Boys Over Flowers.Fine,shall whine no more and start on my last topic of chem.

Hahaha I chickened out,how's that? Just watched the first half an hour of Congkak and I went up home.Firstly,it ends at midnight and I have to climb up the stairs to head home from Grandma's which is quite scary.Secondly,I'm pretty much scared.
Yeah,whatever.This is not the first time anyway.On a second thought,it was not that bad actually.

George is killing me and I feel like jumping off the building.I shall find something nice to do now.Say,chatting with an ass who is suffering from diarrhoea.It's been like a few weeks since we last chatted.There is a lot of catching up to do about mine and his.


Roronoa! says (11:11 PM):
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
hou mai dogz syahirah oninez riaoz.
SYAHIRAH says (11:11 PM):
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
what language u talking?
Roronoa! says (11:12 PM):
hafizing language


On a brighter side,I can't believe that HQ is online wooooooooo.
I wish to stay home the whole weekend but I've got no choice about tomorrow's plan.Betul nye troublesome.

For a sudden change,I felt lazy to blog anymore.Idky but I feel demoralised (??)

I find that Labour Day is quite hilarious.Imagine if you are pregnant that sort of thing,then you are going into labour and people will wish you Happy Labour Day.HAHAHA quite insensitive.

Did only one thing that is productive today which is doing English.How I love English.

Malay Paper was pretty alright.Manageable I should say.The peribahasa quite easy and aiming for full marks,please please.Kinda screwed up the letter just a teeny weeny mistake about the date.I shouldn't let it bother me since it's a little teeny weeny one.Headed Town for Seoul Garden since Marina's was packed like super super packed.I nearly fainted,thank you very much.I feel so fat right now.Pretty worn out day yesterday till I totally zonked out at 7.Yes,very early,I know.On the other hand,I think yesterday was really a nice day *wide grin*

HAHAHAHAHAHA I just spouted a vulgar word because a text message startled me.Super hilarious with my reaction HAHAHAHAHAHAHAA

Less than 2 hours to Congkak and I'm so going down to Grandma's since 3rd eldest brother will be out on a date and 2nd eldest brother is working.I'm so not going to watch it alone I tiao you.

Okay,George just came today and it is affecting my mood right now.That explains I was experiencing pms a few days ago.The pain is quite unbearable right now and I need the bed for a while.

HAHAHAHA another sms startled me.HAHAHAHAHA super _____ la.I just find it funny okay.

For sure,I'm staying up late tonight.Yay.
Oh great.3 mock papers next week.Chemistry,Biology and Social Studies.After school at that.Sleepy time.

Irfan and sister is at my grandma's right now and I should really get my ass out of here,like now.

♥ Syahirah, 18, Republic Polytechnic, Diploma in Communication and Information Design. ♥ food and boys with cute hairstyles ttm.



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